*Relationship*

Had a conversation with my mum during dinner.

Mum: Have you ever thought of having a girlfriend?

Me: Huh?

Mum: What if I allowed you to date a girl that you like? Me and your dad cannot always look out for you. You’re not a kid anymore.

Me: Why’d you suddenly asked that? Erm, I believe in fate. If she dislikes you, no matter how you try, its impossible to bring her into my life. I want a long term relationship. Once I date her, I will make sure there won’t be any arguments between us. Well, now I don’t think there are any girls outside there who likes me. I will try my best if there’s any.

One thing about me that I’m too afraid to be in a relationship because I don’t want to lose her.I want to continue the journey with her for the rest of my life.You guys know me, I’m a boring person who don’t know how to make a girl laugh, so the chances of getting a girlfriend is low.

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1.03.01

2months sem break

Am i enjoying my holiday? I was supposed to get a job. I’ve asked but xxx didn’t hired me.

I know xxx did not want to hurt me by gave me a few excuse.” Sry, no space la”

XXX was too nice.Everybody’s heart is very fragile.

When i know the truth, i hate myself for not being smart* like the others. My skill is suck . It was reasonable for him to say that.( will polish my skill during holiday) Can you be honest to me next time?pls..I don’t want to talk big, i worked hard but it was useless.I tried to work smart but the outcome was not good. Someones can just simply come out with a brilliant idea without doing mindmap or whatever(no offend). I realised that life is never been fair.

I don’t think a boss will hired a person who is hardworking but not smart infact he will hired smart ppl.

I was wondering will i be a designer in the future? Yes or No? The others option for my future career is a BUSINESSMAN. No matter how good you are, if you work under your boss, you won’t be rich.I strongly believe in that.

So next semester, i have to be lazy then maybe it makes my life easier. I’m too tired for being hardworking.At the end of my story, FUCK MY LIFE.

Dream within dream

You just don’t understand me. What if i switch postion with you? i know you’re busy and might frustated because of your business but please don’t release your anger on me. You told mum” Your son is so free and watched what @#$%^movie”

Do you expect me to sit in front of computer for 24hours?I’m  always being honest with you. Since when i lie to you dad?So sorry because i don’t know how to entertain you ,sometimes.You seem like didn’t trust me. C’mon, to be honest with , i no talk big ( if i compare with other guys, im very very very GUAI. I no smoke, no gamble, no clubbing(only once),If i spend money , i spend more on charity then eating la. I nvr told you how much i donated to the charity because im afraid once i told u , you would said i donate too much. you take a look at your friend’s son, are they good?Obedient? got moral ar? )If you want to scold me and punish me, i would stand here and won’t go anyway.I’m not a kid anymore although sometimes i quite childish.

As a son, i would respect you. No matter how you scold/treat me, i won’t argue with you . Just let it be.

* Like Father like Son*

Prom nite  is around the corner. 22days to go and i was worrying about my uniform. What should i wear on that day?  Actually, i wanted to order a blazer from Taiwan that is white in color, because my roomate’s sister who is studying there is coming back on 17^th this month. If you buy it online, then there will be a risk because you won’t know how the quality is.

My mum is back from Genting Highland and i asked her to help measure my body size in order to get a suitable blazer. After a while, she took my dad’s wedding uniform out from her closet and showed it to me. She asked me to wear it. Omg!!! My dad’s wedding uniform (1set) is all white!!! I wore it and looked in the mirror. It suited me. “Why don’t you just wear this and go to the prom night?” my mum asked. “This color is not pure white and it belongs to dad. People will laugh at me if i do so.” I answered. (I told her that i might wear it if i marry 1 day, ok pls dun laugh==)

We had a long conversation and i decided not to wear it..so this Saturday, she will bring me to the mall and buy a new one. Thx mum for keeping the uniform for more than 24 years. It’s still new and looks cool.

1st January 2010..

Yesterday was New Year Eve. I had supper with my friends and my cousin too. After my cousin went home, we started to talk about future. One of my friend,Eugene asked me a question. Hey, what course that your younger brother was looking for after his SPM. I told him Business course  maybe at HELP college.

Then he answered me,” why don’t your brother straight away work for your father and he can continue your family’s business.Since your brother were looking for a business course, if he works for your dad then he no needs to study.Imagine people were studying and your younger brother already had income.”Yea, dude you are right. But then if work for my dad, he has to be really really hardworking.If he can overcome that, he has a bright future for sure.

I was wondering, what if i give up studying design* and work for my dad? I’m pretty sure people would say:Han Hoe is wasting his father’s money only.He shouldn’t study design since he’s dad is a boss* and one day he can become a boss too.Argh, to be honest, before i decided to choose design course, i want to be a business man but then i found out that i like design very very much!I went through lots of hardship( hell training)* at the one academy. I did assignments with my friends, laughed with them and had lots of time hang out with them too.This is so called “friendship”. Studying and working were totally different environment. When you go to outside world, they are many people which you don’t know them .Outside world is cruel.

I won’t give up this course* because i was enjoying the life of being a design student.I enjoyed the learning process.There was a time for me to do assignments and have fun.I was not as good as my friend. I was considered as an average student in my class but i never looked down at myself. If the student is good , then i will go to him/her and learn from them. Everybody have a strength and a weakness, i know my weakness is that  i don’t have good drawing skill and my ideas was still very literal .I will change.”Action speaks louder than word” . I believe time will change everything since this year is the 1st year of my course.

Last Saturday, my younger cousin brother went to America for his engineering course( aerospace). I didn’t even know that until my mum told me.

To cousin:.Uleong ALL THE BEST TO U.

Last but not least:To ALL my FRIENDS. wish you all have a prosperous new year and thx again for being my friend: )

I apologized with what i have done last year: )

Prom nitez( TOA STUDENT NITEZ )

Today, 2 stafts from SRA department came into photography studio. We were told by them about the Prom nite thinggie. They said if there will be a promotion for students. If you buy 10tickets (rm120 per ticket),then they will free u an extra ticket. At the nite, there will be many perfomances and bands as well.

My classmates said is very expensive. At that time, i was wondering.If you can afford a DSLR camera then you said rm120 is expensive. Maybe you couldn’t understand what event will carry out at the nite. 1 of them said HanHoe you go to student nite juz to find a date*. Huh? She misunderstood already. Yes, i post my message on facebook.” I wanna go to prom nite, who wanna join me?” meant= Every1 can join me, is to have fun. Im not looking for a date or a partner. I just wanna go with my friends. Who said Go to prom nite must have partner accompany you?? Im not angry with you, but just wanna let you know my intention. My intention is to know more students and people. I don’t  wanna  always stick with the same people . Degree batch is only 2 classes. C’mon, we have to make use of the prom nitez. I want to know more seniors and communicate with them.

Another thing that i was sad is because the prom nite might be cancel due to fewer of students attendance. I already paid rm120!. Now, you wanna tell me Toa will cancel the event if lack of supportation from  students. Guys, i hope you all can go. Im 100% sure we will have fun if lots of us going..

10 things that i hate and dislike!!

1st: People that are GREEDY* and always complained that “im poor im no money.”

2nd: People that like to GOSSIP behind me. For example, hanhoe is very mafan* 1. He always bring problem to people 1.     He nvr use his brain and think properly. If you! have anything to say, just come to me Fucker. (yes, i admit that sometimes i really impatience, i can change that. If you feel that i bring
problem to you. You may just do your own thing and i don’t even need your help.

3rd: People that like to take advantage from me. ( Can you buy me a food or lunch?, c’mon fucker, if you
dont have money then you no need to come to toa* and study la. Somemore, 11k+per sem, u wanna
tell me that you have no money ??? )

4rd: People that like to spread the rumours. If you don’t know anything about people, pls dun giv a comment
or try to act* as if you know everything. If you have doubt on them, just go and ask them.

5th: Don’t you ever rude to your parents!!! if you still nvr change your attitude, i will punish you for the sake
of your parents.

6th: Don’t treat your friends nicely just because you wanna take advantage from them. ( They buy you a
food sometimes, doesn’t mean that you always expect them to buy you forever and ever. )

7th: I started to hate you since sem2. Your attitude suck!. You are a lazy student, when you work in a group
u nvr put effort on the project and you always give a lot of fucking comment about this and that. Thats
y your group mates never ask you to compile the work! Now u noe right?

8th: Don’t try to link your fren with you as a lazy* student. You ain’t hardworking student , why did you have
to comment about him????

9th:I don’t wanna hang out with you in the COMING class trip because i felt that i couldn’t communicate with you. Ikenot stand with you anymore.

10th: Go fuck yourself and think what hav you done so far?

You was my classmate for 3semester (foundation year). But now you are not my classmate. You noe who you are.!  AND last , if u think your fren feel had no feeling at all when everytime u grab food from them, u r wrong!!. 1 day, i will  go to your class n shoot you infront of everybody . I would make u no face cos you nvr earn my respect, If u think that im too sensitive with your attitude, you may find yourclassmate or your best*fren and ask them. Between you and me, who the hell got moral value??  You tak layak jadi saya punya kawan. PUNDEK. I was frustated for the whole day!

U hurt me deeply and my health at risk

Yesterday nite, i did my assignments until morning 6:30am. I slept for an hour but still tired then. I was thinking what if i suddenly fail or extinct? Today, Stephen showed us a video about the Helvetica fonts. I felt asleep in the class because i was exhausted. My eyes couldnt open and wanna close. Not only me felt tired but included my classmates also. I can say that all of us were rushing for assignments. Taking degree programme in TOA ( Torture Orang Academy) is not an easy task. When the video was ended, Stephen shot us. “Do you all know why was i showing the video to all of you? Do you know the rationale behind?” of coz we knew but the problem was we were exhausted and couldn’t focus. What can we do?” This wednesday, we are going to have a seminar presentation. He invited all of the lecturer to come and see us present. Stephen, when u asked us whether wanna cancel the presentation or not, actually i want!

Since this week is the final week, we have to submit and compile lot of assignments. Everyday , everynite! we hav to rush for assignments. Seriously, our health was at risk. Besides that , i also presented for printmaking final. It was so embarrasing when i was changing my T-shirt in front of everybody. I never expected that they saw my backbody. SWT!. It was a mistake. In addition , my classmate shot me. If i have the knife at the moment , probably i would kill her. When u shot me , i’ve explained to you but u never listened to me. This was why i dislike about you.

4days to go b4 sembreak. Now, i am worrying about myself because i haven’t touch my typography final product yet!( 60 % for packaging, 20%product) + imagery+ a lot .. Ok, i need to go and take a bath, rest n continue to do my assignments.~

Life aint easy.

Today, i went to Leo Bernett’s company for tutorial and my lecturer was Catherine. She was quite a funny lecturer. Luckily,she likes my idea about the fonts design. Consequently, she asked me to design 2 set of fonts. This time really jialat*. Leo Bernett’s company dress in classic style while Ogilvy was modern. Both of the company was totally different. Below is the picture of the company.

Besides that, the company had it own facilities for those designer. Yes!!, it got its own pool table .Me and Jc were so excited because both of us get addicted to pool already. Haha. After i done my tutorial, i asked Catherine to guide us for the tour but she said later la . She will bring us go in 1 by 1 .Somehow , i didn’t make it because i have to leave early in order to celebrate William’s birthday. Now, Catherine had gave me a nickname. U guess what ? It was Honest*=_=’. Then, me and shurong they all went to central market and Petaling street. We walked for about 2hours. We went into the textile shop and art’s shop. I saw a brush which can cost you about rm 183.70.

It was super expensive.It could be my 2 weeks pocket money.What i get to learn was life ain’t easy.Last time, the boss of the textile shop they could earn a lot of money but nowadays they cant. Everything had changed and people now nvr buy textile anymore. They straight away buy it from the Branded shop such as PDI ,SODA, TOP shop and so on. Because of that, i really had learned a lot from them. We have to work harder so that we would have a guarantee for own future or kids. Since we were tired so we decided to leave also and it was around 5:30pm. Me and Yi ning went home by bus . we had waited for 30minutes then only the bus arrived. We spent 1 hour on the way home. On the bus, i smelted sum people armpit Omg!!! it was smelly summore made me hard to breathe zzzzz. OO, me stood for more than 3hours for the whole day.

Once i reached home, i quickly took a bath and laid on my bed. Today , i learned sth which was very important. This was my second time been to Central market. KK, i need to continue to do my assignments. To William, sry bcos today i couldn’t make it . I promise next time i would buy u a lunch dude^^.

Friends..

Your friend that care about you is your true friend.
If they never care about you , they would not talk to you.
If because of some misunderstanding, you argue with them=you are an idiot!

Friend have to trust each other,if you have doubt on them. You are a failure!
Today good friends is not easy to find. Is depend on time actually.
If you lie to your friends when they trust you..you are a bastard.

If because of relationship,you argue with your best friend. It is meaningless and you will lose them 1 by 1.
Friends would help you when you need them. Without hesitating,they would come to you and offer u a help.

If your frens that around you always wanna noe about how did you do , u must tell them bcos they always
share with you^^.

If any1 of you argue with your fren juz bcos of certain incident. then u shud regret and apologize to them.
Life without fren* would be horrible and miserable . So , if u did that to your fren, better b fast.